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Friday, September 28, 2007

Sunday Scribblings-Power

This weeks Sunday Scribblings is all about power. When have I felt the most powerful? That is a tough question for me because I feel like so much of my life is out of my control. Like today. I haven't been feeling well for a while now. It has been just a bunch of little things that have been adding up. So I made an appointment for today.
I was the last appointment for the day and they were running behind when I got there. I had to go through today wondering what was going to happen when I got to the doctor, so I was pretty much useless the whole day.
I finally get called back to that little room where they take your vitals and all that. My blood pressure was high. I never keep up with what it is. I told the nurse that I have been trying to lose weight and have lost about 20 pounds since the beginning of this year.
I was then moved into that other room where they make you take off your clothes and put on that toilet paper robe. The one they put me into today was a front enclosure and not big enough to go all of the way around me so there I am sitting on the table half exposed in my socks, underwear, and Charmin robe. You will never feel more powerless than you are at this moment.
They took blood. They took urine. They poked and prodded me all over. I turned my head and coughed. I got some medicine. I was put on a diet. I have 30 days to lose weight and lower my blood pressure. That's all, 30 days. I know it doesn't sound all that hard, but the thought that I have to do it in 30 days makes me nervous which can't be good for my blood pressure. You can see the problem that I am having.
When did I lose all of my power? I feel like I am losing control of what little power I have. At what point in life do you have the most power? I remember when I was a kid, I wanted to be a detective, a truck driver, Indiana Jones, and a member of The A-team. All of that was just Monday. Then I got older and got scared of failing and not following my dreams. I don't like people being angry with me. The thought of actually confronting someone makes me cringe. So I lost my power. I work every day at getting it back. It is a daily struggle.
I'll keep you posted.

11 comments:

Laane said...

Loosing weight helps lowering the bloodpressure, so does exercising.
Trying to enjoy life will sure help a lot too. Less salt.

Maybe you can find a good yogaclass?

Good luck!

I'm trying to get my bloodpressure down at the moment too.

Lucy said...

Hi Joey, I think this is my first time visiting you. You really touched my heart with this post. With a family full of folks trying to lose weight, I am very empathetic & compassionate to what you're going through. You're right, being nervous with a 30 day dead line CAN make your pressure rise. My husband is really being inspired by the show "the biggest loser". Just take One meal at a time. Make the wisest choice as far as low fat and sodium and try to do a bit more exercise each day. Good Luck and Good Health to you. :) ( I think the Biggest loser has a diet on their web site)

NCConfused said...

I love you Joey. We WILL do it, have faith.

Lisa said...

Joey, I wish you much success!

gautami tripathy said...

Much luck for you. You are gonna be fine!

paisley said...

well best of luck to you here... i find it interesting that blood pressure meds are actually diuretics... so if you can stumble upon a way to rid your body of the excess water,, that will help you show weight loss as well as lower your blood pressure... just a thought......

Jo said...

Good luck. Cut out bread and sweet stuff and you'll see a huge difference. Men lose much faster than women for some reason. I enjoyed stopping by.

Patois said...

You'll feel much more powerful and in control when you've shown you can make it happen. Good luck!

Sentient Marrow said...

I hate those damn paper robes, if you can even consider them a robe... all ideas of power just seep out your feet and run off onto the floor.

Good luck on your weight loss journey!

tumblewords said...

It's amazing how fast your power goes when you turn it over to a doctor! How well I know. Good luck and keep on keepin' on!

Secret Agent Mama said...

With determination we can do anything. I needed to read this, Joey!